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Swings

I have a date with a man on Saturday.

An all day date challenge.

4 locations. 

Let see if this actually happens.

Feck…FECK….FECK!!!!

*rant sad rant*

smoke, sleep, lets see what happens in the morning

fml

Monday Morning Fix

Reasons I love London. You never know what you will find walking about :)

So the last week has been ups and downs.

To make a long story short, I think Irish and I have drifted apart. And with that, are sort of done. Looking back retrospectively, it isn’t an awful thing. Not at all. Maybe it is a good thing. Although it is a shame, his work was priority number one. There is always a work trip or something. Moreover, as the weeks went on, I couldn’t be the same funny happy person as I was with my friends, or him either. It is a shame but it is what it is. 

So I have been a little meh over all that the last few weeks. But I’ve learnt to deal.

Until….

I met a colleague’s friend. Some of us from work went out for drinks on Friday and it was great. My colleague’s friend showed up but I was too busy to even pay attention talking and laughing with all my friends. I ended up speaking to him, which led to us speaking the entire night. He kept telling me awful jokes and making me laugh.

He got my number yes, he text me the next day yes, and then asked me when I am going to see him next. He wants to do dinner and cocktails this Friday. I couldn’t say no.

I want…

As for Irish?

Well, I don’t know. I have to be patient, I have to be this, I have to be that.

But why? 

I know I like him. Yes, that cannot be denied. However, I don’t know his take on all this. In sense that is this just some fun for him, or is this developing into something. I’m not too keen on the whole ‘defining’ anything. However, I do want to know if we’re on the same page. It is very contradictory I know.

It has come to the point that it is starting to bother me. I don’t know how to approach it. I feel it is too soon to start bringing it up, but at the same time I don’t want to wait to a point that it is so far along that I ‘can’t ask’ anymore. I understand I’m still getting to know him and vice versa, but that will be going on for years. I’m still getting to know friends I’ve had for ages.

At the moment, my head is a walking contradiction and I don’t know what to do.